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He shall cover thee with His feathers, and under His wings shalt thou find refuge: His truth is a shield and buckler
Psalms 91:4

Be it ours,when we cannot see the face of God, to trust under the shadow of His wings. C.H. Spugeon

Sunday, July 15, 2012


Ayahuasca is used largely as a religious sacrament. Users of ayahuasca in non-traditional contexts often align themselves with the philosophies and cosmologies associated with ayahuasca shamanism as practiced among indigenous peoples.

While non-native users know of the spiritual applications of ayahuasca, a less well-known traditional usage focuses on the medicinal properties of ayahuasca. More recently, in its history,ayahuasca has been used as an agent in the treatment of substance abuse and the treatment of codependency. As one who has a layman's understanding of addiction and codependency,as a result of study of my tendency toward depression, I was intrigued by a recent documentary on the usage of ayahuasca.

When used for its medicinal purposes ayahuasca affects the human consciousness. The psychedelic effects of ayahuasca include visual and auditory stimulation, the mixing of sensory modalities, and psychological introspection that may lead to great elation, fear, or illumination. It is in the context of this state,that of psychological introspection,that counselors are anticipating the breakthroughs in identifying the sources of each individuals trigger to substance abuse and/or the need of a codependency.

The experience of the individuals is the illumination and personal insight to events or patterns which are in their current status quo affecting their life. Each experience is as individual as the person themselves, however, the commonality is the conscious assessment of the event in light of their maturity. Each person is able to look upon their past experience, not as the child or person who experienced it, but as the adult,    
dealing with the issues in a mature context, having greater understanding of the modes to surviving the incident(s) and being subsequently able to adjust thinking, emotions and even more important identifying that trigger mechanism which resulted in their codependency.

This is not a remarkable revelation on my part, but the need to survive life's tragic and painful moments is part and parcel of the human spirit. What differentiates one person from another is the intuitive, adaptive and creative ways used to survive  The ability of people to incorporate third variable mediation or medication to compensate for their immaturity at the time of an offense and the implied inabilities to understand, process and evaluate their pain and dislocation regarding the event, at that time, contribute to the development of either external or internal coping mechanisms.
We must be able to move past our past, but when the past is
tragic or painful then we either freeze emotionally or grasp at
 'pain killers'.

As we experience life, we create emotional bookmarks. When we have a strong reaction or feeling during an experience, our bodies bookmark it to remember it for the next step. Our brains also create mental models as we experience life These two psychological concepts are important because it helps our bodies and minds adjust and learn as we take in life.

The problem is that emotional bookmarks and mental models can also be our downfall when faced with a situation of survival. They can lead us into a false sense of security because as the world changes, most often our emotional bookmarks and mental models stay the same.

Survival, death, and decline all depends on how you face reality, which is the first rule of survival. Survivors, by what ever means they use, have an understanding and expectation that the world keeps changing and therefore they must always keep their sense tuned to “what’s up?” Survival is a transformational process. Being lost is not a location.

"We are lost not because we don’t know where we are. We are lost because we don’t know who and whose we are. If our identity is caught up in our own emotional bookmarks of who we used to be or if we continue to use mental models based on what used to be then we truly will die."

The ability or even the gift, to be who we really are is lost in Western culture. We all have a perceived identity based on exterior criteria either influenced by our peers, our social centers or the media. Each seek to shape and create a dependency upon acceptance. This too is a form of codependency.

What is lacking and what is seemingly suppiled by cathartic experiences is the insight into who we are as an individual person and the realization of that person's right to be. Maturity is the key when it comes to understanding the processes and resulting introspection of any catharsis.

What happens throughout life is survival, sometimes just a blunt attempt at getting through a day, sometimes a well thought and planned method of escape, sometimes an opportunistic attempt at freedom, but, eventually either in death throes or as a gift, we will all come to a point or juncture whereby our life will be seen as the gift that it is/was and we will become accountable.
“The true survivor isn’t someone with nothing to lose. He has something precious to lose. But at the same time, he’s willing to bet it all on himself. And it makes what he has that much richer. Days stolen are always sweeter than days given.”

Our true identities, the personhood we all desire for, will never be found outside of a relationship with God through His Son, Jesus Christ.

Everyone has experienced pain from life's circumstances, and as placebic and mundane as it sounds, God has a plan through it to allow you freedom and personhood, true to your character and identity.

"If I have set you free, you shall be free, indeed"

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