Dabar [theme]

He shall cover thee with His feathers, and under His wings shalt thou find refuge: His truth is a shield and buckler
Psalms 91:4

Be it ours,when we cannot see the face of God, to trust under the shadow of His wings. C.H. Spugeon

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Complaint or Compliant




"It is a curious fact that the church has, by and large, continued to sing songs of orientation in a world increasingly experienced as disoriented…It is my judgment that this action of the church is less an evangelical defiance guided by faith, and much more a frightened, numb denial and deception that does not want to acknowledge or experience the disorientation of life. The reason for such relentless affirmation of orientation seems to me, not from faith, but from the wishful optimism of our culture. Such a denial and cover-up, which I take it to be, is an odd inclination for passionate Bible users, given the larger number of psalms that are songs of lament, protest, and complaint about an incoherence that is experienced in the world … we have believed that faith does not mean to acknowledge and embrace negativity. We have thought that acknowledgement of negativity was somehow an act of unfaith, as though the very speech about it conceded too much about God’s “loss of control”…

Complaint is viewed as negativity, and is considered to be an act of unfaith and a failure to appropriate faith or to be compliant to the view held by a majority, but, for the trusting community and that community extending to the 'fringe' people who call Jesus their Saviour, their use of complaint is an act of bold faith.

Job 13:15, "Though He slay (lament) me, yet will I trust (communion) Him. Even so, I will defend (complaint) my own ways before Him."

The point here is that complaint is a legitimate experience of faith. Complaint can be a regular feature of faith. In fact, complaint can be an act of bold faith. The tone of life is one in which complaint can predominate, though this view is, or should be, weighed in light of God's promises and His abiding faithfulness and is exchanged for that of confidence and hope. This is not a dichotomy, a view to life as having conditions perceived as polar extremes or opposites, an either-or perspective or seeing things as two-sided and nothing more, this belief exists in the realm of life lived with complaint; compliant to an understanding of life in the control of a sovereign and omnipotent God. We judge that the vacillation between the two seemingly polarized positions, one of complaint versus one of compliant, to be antithetical, in that, the complaint should not exist in the persons nature because the aspect of faith should be the pervading and predominant characteristic of the mature and grounded Christian and should promote a compliant attitude towards the disorientated life. Any view to life which allows for complaint via grievance, problem, difficulty, or concern is seen as a question of faith and not as a viable and healthy expression of a communion relationship with God. The question is brought forward that faith does not exist where doubt lives. Complaint cannot exist with faith. This is wrong, it alienates and promotes a view which sees certain Christians as diseased and leprous inhabitants of our Churches. We can not run around proclaiming 'unclean, unclean' and silence those who have and face legitimate challenges to their faith. Specifically, it ostracizes or marginalizes those people who struggle with the randomness of this world and the activities that occur by failing to give due consideration to doubts that they have. To clarify further, by doubt I do not mean to question the validity of God or belief in Him and His actions as being right; nor do I mean to say that God's actions and purposes are contrary or suspect in terms of purpose; but there lies a question in the heart of man that craves an answer; it is a question which cannot be answered except by faith, "...for without faith it is impossible to please God."; it is a question of the soul and requires an answer which speaks to the spirit of the man; it is a question which is linked to that which God has placed in a man's being and the answer must resound through all eternity; it is simply the 'yes' or 'no'... of the validity of our existence in light of the working of a sovereign God. And it is so much more ...

This does not imply that I believe we should give free licence to critics of Christianity and the Church. Certain levels of negativity are detrimental to the fellowship of believers and are indicative of a more serious faith issues, specifically that of a believing communion with God and they need to be addressed. The inclusion of these negative complaints would be contradictory to the intent of the Church to be a community that exists to encourage, edify and enhance communion with God through the receiving of Jesus Christ as a personal Saviour and the belief that He is the Son of God.

This may create a dilemma for certain Christians, however, it allows them, those who do not have rose-colored glasses, to own their struggles as a part of their faith experience. Further, it gives them permission to be different, to walk the walk as a believer trusting and communing with God attuned to their nature, in alliance with the circumstances of their life and up-bringing and accepting and being accepted that their view on life, God, the Scriptures are in accordance with their belief that Jesus Christ, the Son of God, died for their sins and they have received that forgiveness, but, they want in the deeper realm of their spiritual experience to understand their fears and doubts.

This is legitimate belief, healthy and normal. Believe this, that they (those with complaint) view 'blind' faith (compliant) that which normalized the lack of complaint as being 'true' faith, as an offence to the intelligent examination of life. Conventional wisdom tends to quiet and remove those who question and examine the parameters of the Christian life and their desire to give an answer or at least involve people in discussion about what the Christian life is to look like in the changing culture in which we live. In saying this it must be affirmed that the only true way of relationship with God is through Jesus Christ, God's Son ... Jesus said, "I am the way, the truth and the life, no man comes to the Father except through Me."

This is where the confusion begins (and ends), in that the questioning is predominantly about the experience of God as a real and vibrant reality within the context of a personal existence. God is a personal Saviour and that view gives (not that he requires permission or authority)latitude to His working in each individuals life. A lot of people struggle with the mindset of the Church that God can only be approached in certain circumstances or venues; that God can only work in lives in certain places and situations; that my personal experience with God does not have validity unless it conforms to a predetermined set of variables which by there appearance validates the experience as the 'true'. This is in my view another form of legalism and this is what flies in the face of a religion (Christianity) that has as its mantra "Freedom in Christ'. Galatians 5:1, "Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage." 2 Cor. 3:17, " Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty." This liberty is freedom from the institution that was the 'Law' or the "Church' at that time and has through the centuries continued to be represented by the Church and in these times this has become more pronounced. What must be never undone is the "...forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching." (Hebrews 10:25) Gathering together does not refute the liberty held in Christ, the freedom of expression of the working of God in an individual' s life but instead allows for the fellowship and the communing of the Saints, "As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend. (Proverbs 27:17) It's design was for that exhortation, edification and accountability; it's design was for teaching under the leadership of men who were taught by Christ Himself and passed on that teaching to others through those 'Church' services. Gathering together is the mark of our love and faith and hope, "...concerning the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and our gathering together to Him, ... and will be our future and I have thought many times at how surprised and amazed I may be with who I will meet in Heaven.

In that regard, we may be in error by judging other's faith based on complaint or compliant: in the questioning of the liberty that they have 'in Christ'; however,... If you truly read the Old Testament accounts of God manifesting Himself to the people of Israel and you really look at the people He used to that end, I believe you will realize that every psychosis and dysfunction is represented in the people God chose to work with and through to reach His purpose. The New Testament is no different.


The question seems to be not that there are questions. The question is in the desire by our culture for a greater spiritual experience. The question lies with the knowledge held by people of a greater spiritual experience which exists for them to know. The question lies in the absence of that experience within the confines of a 'legalistic' and 'suffocating' Church mentality and an environment which promotes a theistically sound doctrine but disables people from expressing and worshipping God. We are in a conundrum, for how can we give an answer? We must remain true to the fact of salvation in that "...you must be born again...", while allowing for different views on that experience to infiltrate our belief system about God and the Church as His vehicle of evangelization. There seems to be no plausible solution and although I give credit to those on the edge of 'sound' theological interpretation of Church and Christianity (Emerging, etc.) and the profound way in which many of its proponents have approached this dilemma there still seems to be a presiding disjunction with much of the undercurrents of emerging thought. This may be valid , or, ...
Many years ago in a Three Stooges comic book there was a Reader's Letters Page, in it a child had asked the Stooges what to do about a friend who buttered his bread on the wrong side?
The Stooges responded, "I eat both sides of the bread, doesn't your friend eat both sides of the bread, too?"

Monday, October 13, 2008

Imagination


Imagination - here the power so called
Through sad incompetence of human speech,
That awful Power rose from mind's abyss
Like an unfathered vapor that enwraps,
At once, some lonely traveler: I was lost;
Halted without an effort to breakthrough;
But to my conscious soul I now can say --
"I recognize your glory": in such strength
Of usurpation, when the light of sense
Goes out, but with a flash that has revealed
The invisible world, does greatness make abode;
There harbours; whether we be young or old,
Our destiny, our being's heart and home,
Is with infinitude, and only there:
With hope it is, hope that can never die,
Effort, and expectation, and desire,
And something evermore about to be.
Under such banners militant, the soul
Seeks for no trophies, struggles for no spoils
That may attest her prowess, blest in thoughts
That are their own perfection and reward.

The Prelude by
William Wordsworth

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Past & Present; Tyranny of Imagination


A tyranny exists in the desire, those dreams and visions and imaginations of man by which we strive to dominate and obtain from life the good that we see as relevant to our self-interests. We do so by acquiring certain attributes, those esteemed by others as attributes giving power, influence and authority ; those attributes of strength, virtue, prowess, piety, etc., and it becomes laughable, a mere game of rock, paper, scissors, for the exercise of one seemingly supersedes or trumps another. Although we claim mastery and desire mastery of an attribute we still are at the whim of circumstance and public opinion. Physical strength does not defeat a virtuous life. A life of piety does not destroy an athlete's prowess. Respect is not found in knowledge and wisdom, nor is fame found in brute strength. Tyranny means to have by a means what can only be had by another. We do not love because of strength, we do not fear because of beauty, we do not respect because of piety, we do not praise because of knowledge, we do not have faith because of mental excellence or moral quality or physical power either held by ourselves or personified in another. In a world where differing ideals struggle for supremacy, life itself is just an ongoing record of who has won, recently. We are not guaranteed or granted success based on personal character. Dominance is decreed by popularity or majority and subsequently does not represent what is true or just or right. We can imagine and dream and yet ...



Imagination is a dominant faculty of man. Imagination has no conscience, no boundaries, no consistency, meaning the ability of imagination to be perverse is equally as probable as it being virtuous. Imagination is a part of the happy and unhappy, the well and the sick, the sane and the insane, the rich and the poor, it knows no ethnic nor cultural inhibitions, but possesses the souls of all men. It interrupts life with instances of intense feeling and promotes the absence or presence of love and hate. Imagination can make fools of wise men. You will be hard-pressed to find in the history of mankind an instance where imagination did not play a prominent part in the stimulus to act; "Reason is compelled to give ground, for the wisest of men accepts as his principles those which the imagination has had the nerve to introduce." The very premise of work and reward is based upon the assumptions and impressions of the imagination and it is in the pursuit of whim, fancy and fantasy that man finds his true value and worth. The tyrant is dressed in the finest of robes, heralded with the fanfare of Kings, surrounded by the attractive and devoted and only in the realm of the fantastical does the desire of man have its perceived fulfillment. Only in fantasy is beauty, happiness and justice truly created. The only tempering aspect of imagination is the memory, that part of our existence which has created the impressions of life subjecting the projection of imagination to a reality created by past experience. I view life and future through the lens of a perverted (corrupted by dysfunction or diverted by life circumstance) common sense which understands dependant upon what was clearly seen as reality in the past. My memory diverts from the possible, to what is imagined as reality, because belief is tied to the premise that reality is consistent with past experience. This can be the freedom or the enslavement of life. The fantasy created by imagination is a separate and distinct function of my mind from the imagination of the what I believe is truly possible. This is the box, the cage, the prison, the place where Despair lives, for one function cannot exist as a reality of the other. They are mutually exclusive; in the life of the spiritual man, this is faith functioning in the reality of memory, imagination functioning in the reality of belief, future in the reality of the past, situation in light of possibility, life functioning as a reality of random circumstance.


Imagination is the precursor of invention. Imagination is foundational to the telling of a story, the relating of a narrative. It is accepted as the innate ability and process to invent partial or complete personal realms within the mind from elements derived from sense perceptions of the shared world. In this is provided the coping and escape mechanisms which assist people in dealing with the absurdities and incomprehensible actions of life. It helps provide meaning to experience and understanding to knowledge; it is a fundamental facility through which people make sense of the world, and it plays a key role in the learning process. Imagination enhances and develops understanding, creating vistas from which perceptions of life are organized and randomness is comprehended. We seek limits, we desire boxes, whereby, we can relate to the abstract and physical world and develop the models of behaviour and the concepts of action and reaction and thereby cohesively and concisely deal practically and adequately with life. In this lies the fault of human endeavour for in seeking an understanding, we reach the limit of a conceptualization. To understand something is to have conceptualised it to a given measure, to have created a paradigm. The box has been created and we are seemingly safe inside.


Imagination differs fundamentally from belief because the subject understands that what is personally invented by the mind, via imagination, does not necessarily impact the course of action taken in the apparently shared world. Beliefs are part of what one holds as truths about both the shared and personal worlds and those beliefs do not necessarily translate as impetus for changing our surroundings to a representation of our imagined state of being. The play of imagination, is conditioned only by the general trend of the mind at a given moment, although imagination creates scenarios whereby self is served, vindicated or justified those scenarios are governed by circumstance and emotion. Belief, on the other hand, is immediately related to practical activity: Belief endeavours to conform life and thought to the subject's experienced conditions or faith in the possibility of those conditions. Possibility exists as a function of the imagined, the imagined is a function of faith as believing in the truth or knowledge of the reality of the possibilities. You cannot believe in that which you cannot imagine as possible. To believe otherwise is insanity. In certain instances of memory, where memory has been serving as a basis for the projection of future cause and effect, a paradigm shift in a person's imagination must occur to allow for freedom versus enslavement to happen. This is not an act of the will but an understanding of the fact that a higher power in the person of God exists and controls life. This belief enables the mind and spirit to accept the limitations of this existence as well as to apprehend the possibilities for this existence and the future as a part of the vision of God for each person; Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." If we can grasp or understand a concept of future and hope which exists as a part of reality outside the realm of this human existence; that exists as a part of God's plan for humanity then we can rest in the assurance and the promise that an expected end is to be the result of a Sovereign God's purpose for our lives. Thomas Edison believed that the concept of understanding comes from the two simple words under and stand. When one acknowledges that they stand below someone or something else, they make themselves receptive to obtain and retain information from it, thereby allowing for understanding to occur.


Ephes. 3:20, "Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, (or imagine) according to the power that works in us,... "
Philip. 4:7, "...and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, (which goes beyond anything we can fathom or imagine) will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."


Imagination in the light of Christian faith is illuminating, invigorating, and healing and offers us a faith which is clarified by a commitment to; love God with all our heart, soul, mind and strength and to love others as we love ourselves and is rooted in a reality deeper than the confusing moral ambiguities that we encounter in this world. It is a revelation that requires that greater reality, the one beyond our imagination, an entrance into our world. The facts, reason and sensibilities of this world will not support such a faith, unless one can grasp with imagination and faith the belief that Jesus came into the world to testify to the truth: the truth that in an unimaginable twist to human history a God exists who loves to such a degree that an unimaginable event happened, He chose His Own death in place of mine.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Past & Present - Bittersweet


I lie in bondage to life having no recourse to any other options, I am tied to life inescapable from the clutches of life as an imprisonment of time, I am in servitude within the constraints of the inevitable, I am enslaved to the present moment and owned by the future I desire to create.

Exodus 1:14, "...and they made their lives bitter with hard bondage--in mortar, in brick, and in all manner of service in the field. All their service in which they made them(selves) serve was with rigor."

I am gorged and spent in anger and pursuit, vindicated and justified by action and suffering, emptied of purpose, filled with resolve, vexed by faith and saved by faith, misunderstood and clear of mind, confused and unadulterated, there is a bittersweet savour to life. The relish to succeed is always tempered by the cost.

Proverbs 27:7, "A satisfied soul loathes the honeycomb, but to a hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet."


I view life through a veil, observing the current events of my life shrouded by the perception that what I am seeing is the sum total of all that is possible, all that is discernible or is true or real within the obligations of time and place and circumstance.

Micah 6:15, "You shall sow, but not reap; you shall tread the olives, but not anoint yourselves with oil; and make sweet wine, but not drink wine."


There is a bitter sweetness to this life in that it is underscored by anger and hatred of the life lived compared to the vistas and plateaus of expectation and hope. Anger protects for a time, but then becomes tiresome, a weariness of the spirit, it is then that the truth becomes knowledge.

Isaiah 3:24, "...and so it shall be: Instead of a sweet smell there will be a stench; Instead of a sash, a rope; Instead of well-set hair, baldness; Instead of a rich robe, a girding of sackcloth; And branding instead of beauty." Such is life, in whatever state we are in the comparable life not lived calls and beckons and makes this life a misery.

Job 21:25, "...man dies in the bitterness of his soul, never having eaten with pleasure."

I live in a life-state of self-delusion understanding my faults, knowing my faults intimately and yet not acknowledging them to others; compensating for those faults by gratuitous service; this is my self-love seeking esteem and the love of others and in that process I am consuming and devouring that precious resource of their love, where in reality only contempt and aversion should dwell in light of the hidden, abject motivations of my heart. What I covet from others requires that evil be done by myself. Job and Solomon teach that human nature has no other means of satisfying desires than by doing harm to others in the pursuit of gratification. I do not act in purity of motive; I esteem what is useful for the attainment of personal pleasure and flatter for promotion those who serve my self-interests. It is an entirely defendable position to place my self-interests over abstract moral principles; like 'do unto ... as you would have ...': One can always weigh the greater good in terms of self-interest. If an innocent man is blamed, condemned, killed, it does mean that it has become my reponsibility to make everything right, it should not be expected that I sacrifice the concrete, actual goods that make my life worth living for an abstraction that I can live without. I decide for myself what is best for myself using my own criteria. The innocent man is revealed as myself, the guilt is revealed in the condemnation of my motive and the death must be my own.
I hate the truth; that truth which reveals my inward selfish tendencies and I subdue and vanquish it with deadly, unjust and criminal passion to remove it from my consciousness. My desire is to live without the pain of the present and the past as part of my life, my only hope of securing that reality is at the expense of those around me. This serves to destroy the pleasure of the moment, the sweetness of the now and replaces it with the bitterness of the moment wasted, the sweetness of the now embittered.

The truth is that I never really live in the present. Memory serves it purpose in vindicating the present, and hope ensures that the present is frivolous and allows it to be thoughtlessly overlooked as the one thing, the only thing, that truly exists. The present moment is painful, it is where I am, the past has become irrevocable, the future is uncontrollable. The empty cavity of life that is the present is subject to imediate introspection resulting in the seeking of the distraction of the future. The diversion of future attainments distracts from this present pain and emptiness and results in the constant planning of my future happiness, which as an inevitable recourse never happens. The future is to be sweet, because the past is bitter.



Bitter the truth
Sweet my self-love
Bitter my pride
Sweet, death.
Bitter my faults
Sweet, pure motive
Bitter the past
Sweet, life.
Bitter present
Sweet pain of life
Bitter future
Sweet promise.
Bitter time
Sweet vanity
Bitter memory
Sweet, ever.

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Past & Present


The past upon reflection provides a rather meaningless expose of a diary of events whose eventual end remains in a state of animated suspension. As life is observed through the lens of our story the passing of time and the memories associated with that story become diary entries surrealistic in nature. Everything I thought was substantial at a present time is reducible to the evaluative recollection of a dream; purposeless in intent, shoddy in appearance, chaotic in exercise and yet containing the mystical and magical rendering of a life lived. Reality is that the substance of life is in the past. The brevity of the present refutes any argument proclaiming its prominence as the sum total of life. If it were not for memory I would quite plausibly have no life.

The mystical aspect of one's life is what contains the life. The story or history cannot hold the drive, ambition, and life that leads a person to act, so decisively, so purposefully, without regard for consequences; without regard for error; to act without concern for the recounting of the record of one's actions; to act without respect for the uncaptured intent of one's activities; to live without esteeming the moment of decision, because in that essence of the story, within those indiscernible variables the self of the individual is embodied. The story only reveals the vigorous aspects of life lived, it does not tell of the self, that part of the individual known only to God; that part of the story hidden in actions and efforts; the surreptitious movements of the soul; the covert intrinsic motivations that compel the will.





Against my will,
... am I compell'd to set
Upon one battle all (my) liberties.


That is life. That is the one battle. That is the struggle that is not told. That is the fight the diary does not reveal. The one life I have to live, but that story is the life and the revelation of that life and the only one that will be told ... and forgotten.

Any objective account of one's life will necessarily leave out the animating life force that gave purpose and meaning to the acts that can seem so lifeless in retrospect. That is inevitable, for the subjective is veiled and masked mysterious and awful and silent. The intent is lost in the action, the revealed, more appropriately in the consequence and the accountability and judgement upon that action. The motivations resolve themselves into reflections on the causes. I view life under the constraints of memory and accept that for the most part my life is recorded instances of action and relationship, some quite disappointing in retrospect. Life does not come with a 'satisfaction guaranteed' sticker.

Job 18:17, "The memory of him perishes from the earth, and he has no name among the renowned."


Psalm 31:12, "I am forgotten like a dead man, out of mind; I am like a broken vessel."

Eccles. 9:5, "For the living know that they will die; but the dead know nothing, and they have no more reward, for the memory of them is forgotten."


Isaiah 26:14, "They are dead, they will not live; They are deceased, they will not rise. Therefore You have punished and destroyed them, and made all their memory to perish."

As I look upon the corpse of my life, that shadow of existence, the shades of the past, the deceased life, (for what is past is dead) there lies opportunity upon reflection to dwell upon the the absence of the eternal influence and distinction that I desired as an outcome of my living. Reality is I will be forgotten as those who have gone before are now forgotten. With this realization there comes the astonishment, the force of the fact that this is 'death', a tortured intense agony of life. Socrates said, 'true wisdom is the skill and practice of death' and it is presumed that by this death which is referred to as 'wisdom' he meant the death of our passions and desires and vain opinions. Not so ...


Life requires only the storing, retention and retrieval of those items of memory fit for the pursuit of life now, and in this we see the basis for continued survival. I teach with my life but in that lies the false; the frail; the futile; the worthless; the life riddled with failure.



What can I do with the burden of evidence proclaiming my ignominious existence? What can I do with the burden of guilt for my inabilities and slothful attitudes to build the prominent and eternal? What can I do when my living inheritance is fraught with failure and abdication?

At successive junctures of life I reflect and review, take stock of my lifetime. This is a time that is common to all, (most people do this at New Year's) and is a time spent attempting to honestly evaluate the decisions and consequences from the prior time. As I have quoted before 'the unexamined life is not worth living'. Time must be spent critically analyzing our time. This is what creates the contextual hardship of reflective thought. I base my objectivity of analyses within a framework of time. This current time and time past. I attempt to ascertain the meaning and purpose of life, both past and present, within the structure of time.

A key word in the Book of Ecclesiastes, used 34 times (more than any other key word) is 'meaningless', also translated 'vanity' or 'emptiness'. Solomon, who had asked for and received from God an inordinate amount of wisdom and knowledge, striving by determined effort to make sense of human life was led to the same tragic conclusion of many modern philosophers. Life is absurd. Solomon here was looking for meaning within time - however, within these limits, life becomes absurd and meaningless, and no one has any assured prospect of personal fulfillment - Solomon could find no satisfying purpose for life—within the limits he had set, that of time. Life is random. There is no meaning or purpose in human experience; life experience. Life is senseless. There may be fleeting joys, those experiences of temporal sensory ecstasy; fleeting happiness, those temporal experiences of good fortune and contentment,"O happiness! our being’s end and aim!" is a sad lament, not a declaration of victory; fleeting pleasures, those preferred experiences of personal desires fulfilled; fleeting... "Vanity of vanities," says the Preacher; "Vanity of vanities, all is vanity." Life is illogical. Ultimately, above the doorway through which men are born into this world and the doorway through which they pass into death is written the same phrase: "Meaningless, meaningless, everything is meaningless."

Eccles. 1:3, "What profit has a man from all his labor in which he toils under the sun?"
Eccles. 1:9, "That which has been is what will be, that which is done is what will be done, and there is nothing new under the sun."
Eccles. 1:15, "What is crooked cannot be made straight, and what is lacking cannot be numbered."

"Die before you die, for there is no chance after death."

Solomon's search and discovery resulted in vexation, frustration, apathy, fruitlessness, dissatisfaction. lamentation, and mourning. Solomon's search lead him to despair, weariness, madness and folly, watching those who win without effort the unattainable by the utmost effort of others. The concrete examples taken from life experience and observation are intentional in challenging the view that life can be objectively represented in a way that we find satisfying.

Eccles. 1:18, "For in much wisdom is much grief, and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow."

Life is what has been handed to me, it has been all that is left over, only my share and in that was the love and the suffering, the loving and the devouring.