Dabar [theme]

He shall cover thee with His feathers, and under His wings shalt thou find refuge: His truth is a shield and buckler
Psalms 91:4

Be it ours,when we cannot see the face of God, to trust under the shadow of His wings. C.H. Spugeon

Sunday, September 09, 2007

No Question


The question of the why I am here? what purpose I serve? Am I living to my potential? Am I missing the point? The resonating thought of my life is a sense of despondency I feel for missed opportunities. Are those feelings real? Is it just perception?

2 Kings 8:13, "...but what is your servant, who is but a dog, that he should do this great (significant, gross) thing?"

In the realm of human existence, probably more appropriately in the life of men, we have the idea of the heroic, the concept of building with intent to preserve for eternity the significance of our lives. I wish to be remembered, I desire to erect monuments of success and edifices commemorating my notoriety, structures declaring and exhibiting my heart's want for importance. I am not necessarily talking about the physical, because life is so much more than the physical, but the building of those things that carry eternal value, that stand the test of time. Most of what that implies means building into lives.

The fear exists that the occasions for that kind of relevance to be achieved is past, that time has played a cruel trick and exercised the option, it's too late. Anxiety for the lost opportunities, the chances to gain, the circumstances for fulfillment of dreams, all these seemingly are behind, not a reality in which to find satisfaction.

The urgency of the present is oppressive. It holds me in its hands, hands that constrict, arms of captivity, shackles of tyranny, a jail of timely discontent.

The thought exists that I have never had 'the blessing', the passing on of heritage, lineage, the validation of worth in the eyes of another who is esteemed, respected or admired (in likeness a father-figure).

In these thoughts is encapsulated the idea of commissioning, a rite of passage, an indicator of worthiness, significance, and value, the demarcation of a point of departure to an area of service or mission, movement.

And there is hunger.

There is set within the heart of man the invincible, the quest, the desire for conquest and victory, the yearning for immortality, the desire for immunity from pain and sorrow. This desire is not satisfied or placated with earthly pleasure, power, strength or abundance. This is the cry of the heart for eternity.

This God has prophetically placed in man, to forever create in him dissatisfaction. Man the malcontent is constantly striving to achieve those things which God has declared unachievable. This seems to be cruel, God made to appear as a devil, creating an appetite for which there is no provision to satiate.

"With man these things are impossible, but with God all things are possible" Matthew 19:26

In what God has created there is the realization of fulfillment. God has given us the ability to possess what burdens He has placed on our hearts. In the very desire lies the blessing.

"Blessed are they that hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled."

Hunger and thirst must be made acutely conscious before the desire to slacken becomes a need.

In the pursuit of the eternal, awareness of the futility and abject poverty of our personal inability to acquire anything of substantial significance becomes a crossroads in life usually experienced when sorrow and pain become such that people despair for relief and begin to mourn their mortal and corporeal existence.

Isaiah 55:1,2 "Ho! Every one who thirsts, come to the waters; and you who have no money come, buy and eat. Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost. Why do you spend money for what is not bread, and your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, and delight yourself in abundance."

I am without ability or means to purchase that for which my heart cries, those desires of my heart, even the vain and selfish are not attainable by my efforts. Thank God, that those things impossible by me are possible with God.

Isaiah 41:17-18 "The afflicted and needy are seeking water, but there is none, and their tongue is parched with thirst; I, the Lord, will answer them Myself, as the God of Israel I will not forsake them. I will open rivers on the bare heights and springs in the midst of the valleys; I will make the wilderness a pool of water and the dry land fountains of water."

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